Mellow Yellow

Yesterday, my neighbor Ebony said, "Jenni, you are mellow."
Now if you've ever met me, mellow is probably one of the last adjctives you'd use. Bubbly, perky and impetuous perhapse, but not mellow.

Yesterday i spent all day on the phone with Social Security, Medicare, Medi-cal, CSULA Financial Aid, and the Apple Store. Medicare alone is a doozy, and we all know about the dreaded Financial Aid office. So yes, it was a full on hard core day that would leave any human being a dejected, stressed-out, hot mess. But then how was i mellow?!

Yesterday i came to a more full understanding of how resting in God's sovereignty feels. So much energy had been expelled trying to fix and prevent problems in a loving manner, that i barely had enough to sit up straight. Yet understanding i have no control of it, that God knows exactly where i am, what He is doing, what is to come and He does not make mistakes... i was completely at ease. No really, completely at ease. Most areas of my life right now are strug-ugg-gle and my Daddy is aware and in complete control of every one. That knowlege gives you the energy to rest and rejoice in The Lord.

Yesterday, i was mellow.