Saturday, October 31, 2009

Todo Para Usted

No puedo explicar, lo que no Usted explicará,
volver me abajo desde copias de seguridad,
contengo la respiración ahora, es acumulando,
grabados con marcas por debajo de mi piel,
yo soy el problema y no puedo sentir,
y cuando los recuerdos escapar,
voy a tener una mejor vista desde aquí.
Tomar recuperar ahora, mi vida yo estoy robando,
ayer había terminado,
hoy estoy perdido sin Usted,
se escapó otra vez sin Usted,
y más de lo que pensé que sería,
que eso enfrentan es lagrimeo agujeros en mí otra vez.

Confiar en Ti es sólo una defensa,
con una lista de otros que no tienen sentido,
ruego una y otra vez,
para llevarme de vuelta,
tomar recuperar ahora, mi vida yo estoy robando,
yes, take back my life i'm stealing,
Usted va a ganar.
Ayer había terminado,
pero hoy estoy perdido sin Usted,
se escapó otra vez sin Usted,
y todas las cosas que me hiciste pasar,
i'm holding on by holding on to You.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Psalm 130

1Out of the depths I cry to you, O LORD!
2O Lord, hear my voice!
Let your ears be attentive
to the voice of my pleas for mercy!

3If you, O LORD, should mark iniquities,
O Lord, who could stand?
4But with you there is forgiveness,
that you may be feared.

5I wait for the LORD, my soul waits,
and in his word I hope;
6my soul waits for the Lord
more than watchmen for the morning,
more than watchmen for the morning.

7O Israel, hope in the LORD!
For with the LORD there is steadfast love,
and with him is plentiful redemption.
8And he will redeem Israel
from all his iniquities.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Bogged down with jade, for i have not played...

I heard this story,
though i can't remember where,
it shows God's glory,
and our consistent err.

There once was a mystic floundering in a lake,
he cried out, "God, save me for heaven's sake!"

Soon came a baker with his loaves of bread.
"May i save you sir, from your pending dread?!"
"No," said the mystic," to my God I have cried,
He will surely save me before I have died."
So the baker traipsed on, up into daybreak,
and the mystic cried out, "God, save me for heaven's sake!"

Soon came a rancher with his ducks and dog,
"Sir, let me save you, grab onto this log!"
"No," said the mystic, "to my God I have cried,
He will surely save me before I have died."
So the farmer trudged on carrying a drake,
and the mystic cried out, "God, save me for heaven's sake!"

Soon came a beggar, a tin cup in his hand,
"Oh sir i will save you, and bring you to land!"
"No," said the mystic, "to my God I have cried,
He will surely save me before I have died."
So the beggar sauntered on, wary of the mistake,
and the mystic cried out, "God, save me for heaven's sake!"

In his folly the mystic then drown,
and was taken to the God that is renown.
He went to the face God, as all must go,
The LORD's glorious countenance all aglow.

Many millennia it took to gain back his attention,
the presumptuous mystic then began to question,
"Why, oh Lord, did you let me drown in exhaustion?"

With a thunderous sound, God began His rebuke,
"Did you expect a miraculous sign, a king or a duke?
I sent three men after you, it was not a fluke."

The moral of the story is this:
When you cry out to be saved from death's kiss,
do not be taken astray or amiss.

Do not be deceived by the Pharisaic leaven,
false promises from the malevolent heathen.
You may not see a miraculous sign,
His help may be ordinary events that perfectly align.

© Jennifer Lynn - 2009

Friday, October 16, 2009

...because i am really smart.

Something i used to do A LOT is argue, quarrel and fight. It is a part of my life that i am not proud of and has been a focus for me lately as i look at the redemptive work the LORD has done in my heart. I used to take pride in my argumentative abilities and assessed the reason i had a knack for debate was because i was a quick wit and really smart. If my B.C. self had said this to my new self, my new self would have to whole heartedly (although lovingly) disagree. I would have to say to myself, Self, please keep in mind that i am not attacking you but the statement. You do not quarrel because you are smart. You quarrel because you are sinful to the core.
This is probably a harsh way to speak to oneself and an argument in itself, but go with me here. ;-)

People do not quarrel because they are smart. People quarrel because they take themselves too seriously. At the heart of most arguments is pride and/or selfishness. James poses the questions, "What causes fights and quarrels among you? Don't they come from your desires that battle within you?" (4:1). He is cautioning against corrupt affections, and love of this world, which is enmity to God (vv. 1-10). Regardless if we are quarreling over material things or our our sensitive feelings, all fighting comes from the corruption of our own hearts. Smarts has nothing to do with it (unless you argue that smart people are better at winning arguments; which could be true but then you would be confirming that smart people are more cunning and deceitful).

So basically when my B.C. self said, i quarrel because i am smart, i was actually saying, i am selfish because i am smart or (more accurately) i sin because i am smart. Worded this way, it is more clear to see that we are using said smarts to qualify sin. We do not sin because we are smart, witty, noble or wise; we sin because we are sinful to the core.

As i look at my B.C. self, i am perplexed as to how God would choose me to be an object of His affection. Even as i look at my new self who continues to sin, i am all the more baffled as to how God would still love me. Yet He does. Not out of necessity but because He Is.

A lil' somethin' extra from C.J. Mahaney:

"In the ancient world a father's inheritance was passed along to his son. If a father had no son, he had no heir. Necessitated by this dilemma, a son-less father would search for a suitable son to adopt. This adopted son would become the father's heir.

Now think about this: God had a Son. And not only did the Father have an heir, He had a perfect Heir, a beloved and well-pleasing Heir (see Matthew 3:17, 17:5; Mark 1:11; Luke 3:22, 9:35; 2 Peter 1:17).

Reflect on this: God had a Son—a perfect Heir.

Which means that under the shadow of the ancient custom:

Your adoption was unnecessary.

My adoption was unnecessary."

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Love is Fruit, Not a Root

Here is something i'll be meditating on for a while and thought i'd share:

“I once knew a good woman who was the subject of many doubts, and when I got to the bottom of her doubt, it was this: she knew she loved Christ, but she was afraid he did not love her. “Oh!” I said, “that is a doubt that will never trouble me; never, by any possibility, because I am sure of this, that the heart is so corrupt, naturally, that love to God never did get there without God’s putting it there.” You may rest quite certain, that if you love God, it is a fruit, and not a root. It is the fruit of God’s love to you, and did not get there by the force of any goodness in you. You may conclude, with absolute certainty, that God loves you if you love God.”

Charles H. Spurgeon

Illuminating Galatians 4:1-7

A wonderful sermon by C.J. Mahaney that i totally recommend is, God as Father: Understanding the Doctrine of Adoption and can be found at

See in the Dark

Sometimes we walk blind. Sometimes evidence of God in our lives is evident and sometimes an ebony night swaddles us and we must see in the dark.

Last night i was part of a much needed, albeit a tad confusing conversation on faith. What is faith? What is our faith in? Everyone has faith in something so how is faith in Christ different?

Faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen; for we walk by faith, not by sight. It does not rest in the wisdom of men but in the power of God. Faith in Christ comes from hearing, and hearing through the word of Christ. Faith acts as a shield, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one. It is through faith by grace you have been saved, and this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God. Even if we are faithless, God remains faithful— for He cannot deny himself
(1 Corinthians 2:5; Ephesians 2:8; Romans 10:17; 2 Timothy 2:13; Hebrews 11:1; 2 Corinthians 5:7; Ephesians 6:16).

Everyone has faith in
something - possessions, money, relationships, self - but what happens when that something fails you? Sometimes it takes all else to fail for faith in the One to come or return.

The thing that resonated with me the most was this awesome reminder: God requires something of us, of which we cannot produce ourselves. He requires faith in Him which can only come from the free gift (redundant for a reason) of faith. Faith is illuminated by the Gospel and tended to by the Holy Spirit of promise:
In him (Christ) you also, when you heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation, and believed in him, were sealed with the promised Holy Spirit, who is the guarantee of our inheritance until we acquire possession of it, to the praise of his glory.
Ephesians 1:11-14

We are not sufficient, we cannot do it ourselves. We have done nothing to obtain this grace of faith therefore can do nothing to lose it. No matter how dark it seems.

Jesus saith unto him, "Thomas, because thou hast seen me, thou hast believed: blessed are they that have not seen, and yet have believed."
John 20:29

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

When "Humility" is Arrogance

Thinking you are the worst person in the world is no different than thinking you are the best;
it is giving yourself a place in the universe you haven't earned.

Friday, October 2, 2009

Religion Stinks in Human Hands

I have heard many stories of people who grew up in the church (usually Catholic) and hate God/religion/etc. I too have struggled with a hatred of the church and it is not surprising why. People suck. We have no hope of getting anything right. Even leaders in the church get it wrong all the time. But when "Holy" people get it wrong (or so we judge) we blame the church as a whole and God. However, the problem is not God or His design for the church. It is our pride.

The only thing different in Christians verses everyone else is the Holy Spirit given to us through the accepting of the Gospel. There is nothing else good in us so we have no reason to be proud. But alas, pride seeps in our black hearts and we think of ourselves too highly. Those that take themselves too seriously quarrel often. Those that judge others think they know better and those that judge themselves think they should be better. But the truth is, God loves us, not because we are good or are lovable but because He is great and He is Love. This makes the doctrine of adoption so wonderful.

I have been watching (addicted to) Joan of Arcadia and really impressed with the portrayal of God. In the second season, Joan has a crisis of faith and actually tries to beak up with "Hot Guy God" (God appears to Joan in various forms). It is comical but so true. We often times feel hurt by God and then want nothing to do with Him. However, no matter how gruesome the act against us, God planned it out of love, for His glory and our benefit. Hard to wrap your mind around (i know), but it is truth.
28And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.
Romans 8:28

It may be easier to understand through humble eyes. Try a little introspection. Introspection makes you crazy. For real. It can show you how depraved you are and then go one of three ways: You can 1) realize that there is nothing good in you and praise God for loving you because He is great, 2) try harder to be better or 3) turn to self pity which is just a form of pride thinking you should be better. You aren't. You are part of a fallen and imperfect, depraved race and there is nothing you can do about it.

In "The Cat" episode, Joan adopts a wild cat. It is an ugly, smelly, mean and ungrateful cat that hisses and scratches at the hand that feeds it. "Cat Lady God" asks Joan to care for the cat, giving her a pamphlet on how to care for the cat. Joan takes the cat home, feeds it, comforts it and reads to it. Slowly Joan lets the cat out of the cage helping it adapt to being in a loving environment. (This is kind of like introducing a new fish into the tank.) In the end, the cat runs away.

Who are we in this story? The cat.

It is true that we all are ugly, smelly, mean and ungrateful mongrels. We deserve nothing, yet God offers us everything. It doesn't always look like much through our depraved eyes, but like the cat, we need to be slowly shown who God is (through His Word - our "how to" pamphlet) so that we aren't overwhelmed. We must be looking at Him, not His people as ultimate. His people are not Him but a reflection of His perfect Son. We run away all the time, yet God doesn't stop loving us. He is always there to welcome us back with open arms as we walk through the narrow gate that is Christ.

not because of works but because of Him who calls— Romans 9:11b