Faithless

So things are pretty crazy. I can walk and dance in moderation, on a good day. However, the pain has morphed to muscle spasms, random sharp 'shock' pain and weird dizziness. Sometimes my world shifts and sometimes gravity pulls my head to the floor. Sometimes i get lost in my own apartment. Sometimes i get scared over what is happening to me. Oh, my faithlessness!

Zechariah 13:6:

⁶And one shall say unto him, What are these wounds in thine hands? Then he shall answer, Those with which I was wounded in the house of my friends.

This is in reference to:

John 20:25-27:

²⁵The other disciples therefore said unto him (Thomas), We have seen the LORD. But he said unto them, Except I shall see in his hands the print of the nails, and put my finger into the print of the nails, and thrust my hand into his side, I will not believe.

²⁶And after eight days again his disciples were within, and Thomas with them: then came Jesus, the doors being shut, and stood in the midst, and said, Peace be unto you.

²⁷Then saith he to Thomas, Reach hither thy finger, and behold my hands; and reach hither thy hand, and thrust it into my side: and be not faithless, but believing.

Jesus was, "wounded in the house of my friends" when Thomas did not believe. He is hurt when we do not believe/trust/have faith.

James 1:17

¹⁷Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning.