Wise and Humble and Useful

"By God's grace, I've weathered many storms just like this, and if you submit to what God is trying to teach you, He will make you wise, and humble, and useful."

-Billy Grahm

Delirioius?

"Over the mountains and the sea,
Your river runs with love for me,
and will open up my heart,
and let the healer set me free.

I'm happy to be in the Truth,
and I will daily lift my hands,
for I will always sing of when Your Love came down.
I could sing of Your love forever.

Oh I feel like dancin',
it's foolishness I know,
but when the world has seen the Light,
they will dance with joy like we're dancin' now!"

The Things i Ponder Too

Though the angels were created before us,
and are with God now;

though the angels saw Christ depart from heaven,
and followed as he grew into a man;

though the angels ministered to Him at Gethsemane
and watched the crucifixion;

Though the angels are with Him now,
and may see everything subject to Him;

though the angels will blow the trumpets,
and proclaim Christ's return;

though day and night the angels sing,
holy, holy, holy is the LORD God Almighty,
who was and is and is to come;

yes, though the angels have never ceased with praise,
we may sing a song that even the angels can not sing;

a song of God's children,
a song of salvation.

For surely it is not angels that he helps,
but he helps the offspring of Abraham (Hebrews 2:16).

The Things i Ponder

When people ask, how are you doing, i try so very hard not to reply, fine. My hope is to give an accurate answer because i wonder how much Christ is served by being just fine.
When i am overcome with joy and bursting at the seams, i say so without much effort or second thought. When my heart aches and i am fighting the mist that seems to surround me without an end in sight... well that is when honesty becomes difficult. Some of my go to answers in these cases would be, i'm fighting for joy, or hanging in and hanging on.

The one that i use most often - the one that has got me pondering - is, i am cleaving to Christ with all i've got. So... i know God is pleased and glorified when we walk faithfully the path He has given us; yet in my head i envisioned Indiana Jones in The Last Crusade, clinging on to the edge of the cliff for dear life. I imagined him clawing into the earth with his fingers, collecting dirt under his nails, scratching his boots along the side groping for a foothold and tugging on plant roots to support his weight.
And i came to wonder... if i am cleaving to Christ like that, does it hurt Him?